Remembering your dreams...

These past few weeks, I've been off and on. I've felt so not myself.
 With school been so busy, I've been stressed. A little hurt A little blue
     But I'm doing alright, I'm excited about fall semster starting.
I love college, dance, theatre.

Selena Perez has reminded me what my dreams are. I may have been 2 years old, When she was murderd. I remember growing up hearing her music and even replaying the movie.
Loving every bit of it, wishing I could do what she's done in her life.
   Now that I've made the reconnection, because I've read her book that her husband Chris.
Has written about their life together.

"To Selena with love, Chris Perez"
My mom told me to read the book, I didn't want to because I knew the ending would be sad.
I read the book in three days, Cried at the end because I wish she was still here
   SHE IS AMAZING AS A PERFORMER AND PERSON. BEAUTIFUL! Inside and out.
Her TALENT IS REAL.   Now that I'll go on with my career and path I'll carry Selena with me
 She's my Idol  and Now I know I can't give up on myself.

A little summertime sadness

Everything just isn't the same. I have a hard time with weight.
 I know it's a problem what am I to do? I can confess to myself and everyone.
 I eat because food is my drug. I know it's bad but I can't control myself.

 When I hear things about me like
"more and more I'm starting to dislike you"
 from someone whom I look up too.

It's a wound in my heart. I can not help how I've been raised. I'm not perfect
   I know that I have to change. Change is so hard.
 Am I that bad? Am I really that bad..................


I'm looking forward to seeing my cousin tomorrow.
 Tricia and I might be spending time together yay!
 for now I'm a little blue,

REMINDER TO SELF IT GETS BETTER

Fire to the rain

So much has happen.  In college classes there's not much free time anymore.
 Now that many of my friends have went to the Nokia Theatre for class of 2012.
I wish I had stayed and finished out walk the stage. I may have given up my red cap and gown.
 Just to hurry and move onto college. I'll be class of 2014 at TCC.
 It's just one of those things, I'll regret I should've went to prom. But it's time to look ahead.

     I started summer school just so I can get my AA, And finish c/o 2014.
Than off to new york. Time goes by so slowly.  I remember  going into 9th how that was the best year out of my high school years. No Emmanuel No drama. Just friends with everyone.

                                                      MAY 11,2012
May is full of birthdays for my family, First It was My cousin Tricia's 15th birthday.
 My aunt planned a suprise birthday dinner for her, The most of the family came together for dinner.
Oh! that reminds me that was the day my aunt met Bettina!  Which was awesome becuse Betttina is planning to invite them to the wedding. Which I'm helping planning!!

MAY 28,2012

Grandma's birthday is may 28. But Family had diffirent plans so We had Grandma's birthday party a week earlyer. Which if you'd ask me if worked out. It was huge because We almost had the whole family together ay my grandparents house. It was wonderful <3

  "The Love of a family is life's greatest blessing"


 Now I've just been busy with school, thinking about the wedding, Wedding planning would be so much better if Bettina&Casey knew what they wanted at least. I've chosen a place.

OH! And Ballet and summer school have taken over my summer no vacation for me :(

   And I saw my cousin Lauren who's in the army. I also saw Samantha. I thought I'd be nice and try to say hello but I couldn't do it. I refuse to be hurt anymore so I kept my best friend by my side and didn't even act as if she was there.  As for Lauren I was happy to see her <3

As I'm coming to the end of my update My Grandma had eye surgery but shes been recovering fine. She's almost at two weeks since she had it done. At first it was a little hard but she's healed fine she looks great

SOON THERE'S A FAMILY  LAKE TRIP!

Even if things aren't perfect I'm glad the dog days are done.