That somewhere you are thinking of me...

So much is going on, I have a lot on my mind. SUMMER SCHOOL AND NOOO BREAK :(
 There's not much time for fun at all! boo!!!! Wheres my fun in summer?
   Oh well 2014 isn't that far away anyways.
 reminder to self.. all this work is for my last semester to have only 3 classes!

Oh my...


 My love for the arts

 So I'm really happy.
 I'd like to go out and have a little fun!\
 and lose a lot of weight.
 I didn't notice how much weight. I've gain well with having money. I spent it on the dumb things
 like food! Well I stopped I now spend it on make up and nails lol!
 which is always good, for a girl like me of course!

 I'M DYING TO HAVE SOME FUN!
 Dancing I NEED to go dancing!
  my dance classs is over so I still have classes. but I really wanna dance!

I've spent the fourth of july with family. everything is good!

LIFE IS GOOD


XOXOXO
 Rose Nichole

Remembering your dreams...

These past few weeks, I've been off and on. I've felt so not myself.
 With school been so busy, I've been stressed. A little hurt A little blue
     But I'm doing alright, I'm excited about fall semster starting.
I love college, dance, theatre.

Selena Perez has reminded me what my dreams are. I may have been 2 years old, When she was murderd. I remember growing up hearing her music and even replaying the movie.
Loving every bit of it, wishing I could do what she's done in her life.
   Now that I've made the reconnection, because I've read her book that her husband Chris.
Has written about their life together.

"To Selena with love, Chris Perez"
My mom told me to read the book, I didn't want to because I knew the ending would be sad.
I read the book in three days, Cried at the end because I wish she was still here
   SHE IS AMAZING AS A PERFORMER AND PERSON. BEAUTIFUL! Inside and out.
Her TALENT IS REAL.   Now that I'll go on with my career and path I'll carry Selena with me
 She's my Idol  and Now I know I can't give up on myself.

A little summertime sadness

Everything just isn't the same. I have a hard time with weight.
 I know it's a problem what am I to do? I can confess to myself and everyone.
 I eat because food is my drug. I know it's bad but I can't control myself.

 When I hear things about me like
"more and more I'm starting to dislike you"
 from someone whom I look up too.

It's a wound in my heart. I can not help how I've been raised. I'm not perfect
   I know that I have to change. Change is so hard.
 Am I that bad? Am I really that bad..................


I'm looking forward to seeing my cousin tomorrow.
 Tricia and I might be spending time together yay!
 for now I'm a little blue,

REMINDER TO SELF IT GETS BETTER

Fire to the rain

So much has happen.  In college classes there's not much free time anymore.
 Now that many of my friends have went to the Nokia Theatre for class of 2012.
I wish I had stayed and finished out walk the stage. I may have given up my red cap and gown.
 Just to hurry and move onto college. I'll be class of 2014 at TCC.
 It's just one of those things, I'll regret I should've went to prom. But it's time to look ahead.

     I started summer school just so I can get my AA, And finish c/o 2014.
Than off to new york. Time goes by so slowly.  I remember  going into 9th how that was the best year out of my high school years. No Emmanuel No drama. Just friends with everyone.

                                                      MAY 11,2012
May is full of birthdays for my family, First It was My cousin Tricia's 15th birthday.
 My aunt planned a suprise birthday dinner for her, The most of the family came together for dinner.
Oh! that reminds me that was the day my aunt met Bettina!  Which was awesome becuse Betttina is planning to invite them to the wedding. Which I'm helping planning!!

MAY 28,2012

Grandma's birthday is may 28. But Family had diffirent plans so We had Grandma's birthday party a week earlyer. Which if you'd ask me if worked out. It was huge because We almost had the whole family together ay my grandparents house. It was wonderful <3

  "The Love of a family is life's greatest blessing"


 Now I've just been busy with school, thinking about the wedding, Wedding planning would be so much better if Bettina&Casey knew what they wanted at least. I've chosen a place.

OH! And Ballet and summer school have taken over my summer no vacation for me :(

   And I saw my cousin Lauren who's in the army. I also saw Samantha. I thought I'd be nice and try to say hello but I couldn't do it. I refuse to be hurt anymore so I kept my best friend by my side and didn't even act as if she was there.  As for Lauren I was happy to see her <3

As I'm coming to the end of my update My Grandma had eye surgery but shes been recovering fine. She's almost at two weeks since she had it done. At first it was a little hard but she's healed fine she looks great

SOON THERE'S A FAMILY  LAKE TRIP!

Even if things aren't perfect I'm glad the dog days are done.

Fading

Maybe right now isn't excatly the right to blog ESP since I'm getting so angry. It's best for me to shut up. Well it's my mothers birthday p, her friends are pissing me off. I wish I stayed home but I was sick of being in the house and I was pnt even suppose to be here! I miss the beach I was suppose to go the island but no the damn rain hasme stuck here in this lame town. The past week has been pretty good until now. I'm dreading life right now I wanna go home and go to sleep. Also because so much trash is. Being talked about me. Well you don't me you don't wear my chains

The wedding invitation that'll never come....

So many people around me are getting married! First off Bettina and Samantha my cousins.
And than there is my old best friend Brianna. Will I get married?

Who knows....maybe...right now I'm not sure

The reason for my post today is to vent. I'm a little hurt, Suprised,Shocked ? Not at all.

I'm a little blue because Samantha, Well rumor is
"she's only inviting the people who have been there for her"
How on earth is that fair? I've tried to be her friend her family. Has she counted me as her family....
 No, all these years I've only gotten an "efff you" from her. I felt she wasn't going to invite me.

oh well right? not my lost.... All I can do is focus on my family who does want to be around me.

Bettina wants to be around me, I think.
I know I want to be around her. We've talked about it. I really hope she lets me help her plan her wedding it would mean so much to me.

XOXO Until later, I'll update later about the show right now I'm going to spend time with family
Rose Nichole

Growing up...

The new things that I've come across lately have been new to me and a little hard.

The show went great honestly, Everything got so much better towards the end.
 I made friends with just about everyone, Danced and acted crazy in the dressing room with the girls laughed it until it hurt.  The show was great people laughed a lot . So we all knew we had done our job. 

It's very bittersweet for the show to be over now. And so is the class almost one more class and than. We will go on our own ways. I'm happy I stayed, I'm glad